people must think that my parents are incredibly strict. they are strict. but not to the extreme that i make them out to be. the one with the real problem is me. when i said i couldn't go to eximo, it wasn't because it was an absolute certainty that i wouldn't be allowed. i know that i could've gotten pernission if i really wanted to. but that's it - i didn't really want to. i think that deep inside me, i didn't want to waste my parent's permission - there are bigger things, things that'll mean more to me in the end.

that's all i really wanted to say. i'll bring lilith back now.
posted by Lilith at 9:59 PM

This is Clair, speaking through the lips of Lilith.

it is not worth loving someone you aren't attached to. you can't love someone like that. how can you love someone you don't really know? therefore the heart is destined to be broken, and tears were truly meant to fall. shit. one is torn, whether to choose to *love* and maybe lose it, or to keep what one has, and never know what it is to *love.* so either way... there's that risk. how do you know when the person is worth taking that risk, or rather when the person is deserving of NOT taking the risk?

it would be much easier if i lived on paper.

but maybe, i already do. whether i do take the risk or not, it would still be a choice worth making and living out... but the question is... can i live with the regrets? it boils down to that, doesn't it?

gah... i've been dormant too long. the silence no longer speaks.
posted by Lilith at 9:31 AM